THANK YOU!

Gratitude changes things. I'm honored that you've been patient with me, grown with me and have accepted my work as something valuable in your life. God bless.

Liam

 

I wanted to date him.  I really did.  He had a heart of gold but it was no match for my broken one.  

I DIDN'T WANT HIM TO FALL IN LOVE WITH JORDAN'S EX -GIRLFRIEND.  

And too much of me is still very much that.  When I met Liam, Jordan and I weren't on speaking terms.  I was well into my healing and learning how to be happy in it.  Liam wasn't a distraction either.  He felt more like a reward for me not falling off the wagon.  (Let's admit, Jordan is a drug.  I've been chasing the feeling I had when we first started dating years ago; that first high)  Liam was safe space.  Our dates were fun and empty and the emptiness was the best part.  Life was much lighter without Jordan's baggage.

But this week, I caught a whiff of Jordan y''all.  Months of hard work went down the drain.  I was mad again; broken again; strung out on memories I was trying to forget and I still had a date with Liam.  I couldn't cancel because it didn't feel fair but when I got there, I just wasn't there.  Jordan's ex-girlfriend showed up instead.  

It's been three days and she's still here; crying over Jordan, re-reading his old text messages and wondering how the man of her dreams turned in the nightmare of her life.

I've Never Lost a Friend in My Life

Where Are You God by Tassika